You know how everyone has that one thing they simply can’t conquer? That one thing that makes your life miserable because no matter how hard you try you just can’t “get it”? That one that that you wish didn’t come between you and your dreams? Well, that thing of me is math. Math is my nemesis. It’s not that I haven’t been taught because I have. It’s not that I haven’t paid attention because I have. It’s just that I don’t get it. I cannot comprehend it or retain the information hard as I try. I can’t do it. Cannot do it. I am almost 29 years old and I don’t know the multiplication tables (and thus division). I was taught alright but I never learned it, not even when I was in elementary school. I am not sure how I got through since calculators were not allowed then. I had to take TWO prep math classes before I could start taking college level math.
I am currently taking two math classes (what the hell was I thinking???) and they are both different versions of math for liberal arts majors. They are supposed to be easy compared to say college algebra but I’m still having a hell of a time with them. For starters, one of the two math classes baffles me (not that the other doesn’t, we just haven’t had a test yet). I get everything right in class, all the homework questions right, practice questions right, etc but when I take the test, I bomb! I took a test yesterday and I was expecting a least a high B. Alas, I was aiming way too high. I got a C instead. Me, the international honor society member! Me, the A student! ME! A C, me! I wanted to cry. I get to retake the test with the lowest score but still!
Every time I take a math test I swear off getting any sort of science related degree since they ALL require several maths, most require calculus and possibly more. How am I going to make it through college calculus if I am scraping by math for liberal arts? How can I be so scientifically inclined when I am so horrible at math? I don’t get it. It’s not like I’m a gifted writer either so the left brain/right brain thing is not applicable here either. I simply have no brain it seems. Maybe I should look into clown college. Do I need math for that? Maybe I should pursue a career in pastry arts since baking is a big passion of mine. I am not very talented there either but it is what I do best (cooking too).
I don’t know what the problem is but I cannot pursue a career in science and academia when I am so terrible at the very thing all those things are based on in some way or another. Even if I never have to use math in daily dealings I still need a lot of it just to graduate. That pesky little math, how bothersome!
Turns out no one side of my brain is dominant (took a few quizes with the same results).