Yesterday was my last day at the office. It was my last day of employment for a few years at least. People have asked me how it feels to be done with work, but the truth is, I don’t feel anything. In part, it hasn’t had time to sink in, it feels like any other weekend. I had been looking forward to that day for so long, and had been preparing for it for months, and to feel….nothing, is pretty anticlimactic. Maybe it will feel different when I don’t have to get up to go to work on weekends, when I don’t have to commute nearly three hours a day, or when the paychecks stop coming. The other reason I still don’t feel done with work is that even though the last IN the office was yesterday, I’m on vacation for another four weeks, so I’m not technically unemployed just yet. If I’m honest, the most difficult and, yes, even emotional part, so far has been having to return the library books I’ve been hoarding for years.
I’ve been involved with this university in one way or another for five years, so I would be lying if I said I’m not going to miss it. I will, but this is not the first time I completely close a chapter in my life and begin another, so I have other experiences to which to compare it. I had far stronger feelings when I left the military, and Naples, Italy, in 2006. That felt like an ending; this doesn’t, or at least not yet. Reality will sink it at some point.
This brings us closer to the move to New York City. My husband got a job offer, and it looks like we will be moving in three weeks or so, so it’s on! We have nothing even remotely prepared for moving. Nothing. We have not even researched moving companies. Hello, last minute!
The following are iPhone photos that I processed on a computer.